At first glance I am sure you are trying to figure out exactly what I am talking about, and to be honest with you at first I didn't know either. Like so many of my previous blog postings it has not been about my thoughts or what I wanted to write about but what God wanted me to write about, but nothing could be more so than this one.
I have grown very distant from God as of late due to circumstances and the going's on in my life, I have been very frustrated with how things have been going, and the change of events that have over occurred over the past few weeks. I had truly thought I was following His plan for my life and when everything fell apart I blamed Him, was mad and neglected my relationship with Him. I felt like I was drowning, life had become to overwhelming and very hard to manage. It was hard to come home to my wife and kids, go to church, have any kind of relationship because I was lacking so much spiritually. I became mad easily, and could not focus on anything.
I began to realize what my problem was. I had not been keeping up my relationship with God, it was suffering because I was not tending to it. God was giving me love but I was giving Him nothing in return, our relationship had become one sided. After realizing this I spent some time in good solid worship, it had been a long time since I had just put on my head phones, turned on my music and tuned out the rest of the world. (Side note, if you have a lot of music on your ipod, mp3 player put it on random, God can really speak to you through it)
That is when God said to me "Fish out of water."
I was like what?! What are you talking about?
"Fish out of water." And that was it. Nothing more, nothing less. Okay, I thought, that is odd but He is obviously revealing something to me. So I began to think about it, pray about, till it was revealed to me what He meant.
I was a fish out of water. When I neglected my relationship with God, I had stumbled onto dry land. I was flopping about gasping for air, struggling to survive and make sense of what was going on.
"37.On the last and greatest day of the festival, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me and drink.
38. Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.”
39. By this he meant the Spirit, whom those who believed in him were later to receive. Up to that time the Spirit had not been given, since Jesus had not yet been glorified."
John 7:38
Living water, I was missing my living water. Just like a fish out of water, I was a Christian out God's living water.
It became apparent to me that I was the one to blame for all that was going wrong in my life, I had decided to walk on dry barren land, to step out from the waters edge and take life into my own hands, to say that it was better on land than it was in the water and that I could survive just fine there.
Obviously I can't though. No one can, not well anyway.
So, I let God pull me back in, back into His living water and I can begin to breath again. I feel peace and assurance that everything is going to be okay.
Are you struggling right now? Is life to hard to bear, do you feel like you can't breathe? Return to the living water, ask God for forgiveness and let Him pull you back into His living water.
Forgive, forget, and let God's will reign in your life!
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